When I launched London Mind Fit my goal was to illustrate to those who need to hear it most that you can recover from mental health conditions. Not only can you recover, but it is important that you tell yourself that you can and that you will.
While not all mental health conditions are made equal, we are all human beings with will power living in a world where miracles happen everyday. My recovery from my mental health issues has seen great successes and true progress that I am so grateful for. All of the hard work that I have put into my healing process, including making this documentary, has been worth it because of where I stand in regards to my health today.
I am stronger than before, I am wiser than before, and I am disciplined about my mental health regimens. While every day is a new day to tackle obstacles and experience growth, sometimes decisive action is what need, sometimes rest is exactly what we require, and sometimes expressing your truth is what we need to move forward. Learning how to listen to your body, mind and intuition and respond accordingly is how you can best learn how to take care of yourself. At the end of the day, we all have our own very specific, wants, desires and needs.
Remember the saying, “where there’s a will there’s a way?” Remember that the next time it feels like your path has lost light and you cannot see the rest of the way. Ask yourself, can I see the next step? And if the answer is yes, take baby steps and crawl until the lights come back on and you’re sprinting down a clear path of reality again.
Watch #MentalHealth: A Documentary today on YouTube and please share this documentary with your loved ones, especially if you believe that there is someone that it can help.
Los Angeles is known for its sunshine, but when I think of L.A. sun I immediately think of a dynamic ray of light coming from Cali called Kibbi Linga!
Kibbi Linga is a beyond talented artist, sharing her emotional artistic process online for all to see! Kibbi is a mental health warrior who paints through her PTSD pain and creates stunning pieces of artwork that are visual representations of what she feels inside. Her ability to express herself through art is even more impressive after you hear Kibbi’s responses to my 5 Questions!
I asked Kibbi if she wanted to participate in my new interview segment called “5 Questions With” and she thankfully agreed! I have wanted to interview Kibbi Linga for London Mind Fit since the website’s creation because Kibbi is so open about her mental health diagnosis and her therapeutic creative process. I knew that the interview would be abundant in wisdom and Kibbi did not disappoint! I asked my 5 burning questions and received a treasure trove of insight!
You and I both suffer from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and yet it is possible that our experiences of the condition are almost completely different. For instance, I get night terrors and flashbacks, but it is possible that you do not suffer from either and could still have PTSD. Over the years I have been able to find mechanisms to manage these symptoms, some days with greater success than others. Can you share with London Mind Fit readers what your experience of PTSD is like and how you have learned to work with this mental health condition?
My main experience with PTSD is underlying emotional pain. For me, it showed up in many ways! Prior to embracing recovery, until age 30 I was exhibiting many dysfunctional and self destructive behaviors. Until recovery, I lived in a world of denial so as I started to embrace truth and my denial slowly shed, many new symptoms occurred! I personally have a very chronic case of PTSD, so I acknowledge that not all symptoms may be relatable, but for me I had many night sweats, insomnia, flashbacks (one I couldn’t escape and had to go to the emergency room), irritability, a compulsion to control, a heartbreak from uncovering truth, a dislocated jaw, and extremely tight muscles. It sounds hopeless, but for me I’ve been blessed with many miracles since and many of these symptoms have subsided.
2. At what stage in your recovery did you discover art as a therapeutic outlet? Have you always been an artist?
I found art 6 months into my recovery, in May of 2019. I was never an artist before because I grew up in a very rigid upbringing that taught me not to talk or express myself. When I started painting, I remembered my dreams as a child of becoming an artist to escape my emotional pain. My dream has been becoming more true every day, as well as my progress in healing. As a child, I wanted to use art to escape my upbringing and its impact on me and it’s happening today. For this, I am so grateful.
3. Your artistic process is inspiring to watch! Not only because of the methods you use to paint, nor the beautiful paintings created by the end, but you literally often work through your emotions on the camera as well. What inspired you to show that raw, real, and sometimes very emotional process on camera? How does it feel to create and share that process?
It feels amazing to share the whole process! Exposing my truth and art heals me just as much as creating it! I am saddened that I don’t have the time right now to create more YouTube videos expressing my process, but I have faith that I’ll be able to return in the future! What inspires me to be raw, real, emotional or vulnerable on camera is the healing that I gain from it. When I expose my true self, I heal. It feels scary to do, but I hold faith that it will heal me, and it always does to some degree! When I paint, I aim to manifest my pain into something beautiful, and I find that being authentic, raw and vulnerable helps me get there! That’s not to say it’s easy, but it does help my “I don’t give a F what people think” muscle that I get to continually strengthen!
4. In one of your latest Instagram posts you mention that “social media is a substantial tool” in your healing process. Can you explain to LMF readers how you have been able to use social media in a healing way and how they could possibly do the same?
Social media has been a (safe enough) place for me to express my art, get validated for it and find a lot of support and encouragement! I started Instagram because my feelings and truth were so unimaginable and ugly that I struggled to receive validation. In essence, I knew that my art pieces were my feelings, so I sought out validation from social media. Did I just log on one day, post my art and receive the validation I was looking for? No, I still had to “search” for it. I found other supportive souls or artists to connect with on instagram, spent time engaging on the platform to grow, etc. As a result, many people validated my art (my feelings) which REALLY helped me in the beginning of my recovery because nobody else could validate me. As my social media journey continued, I’ve expanded platforms and use them all the same way. I have truly found a lot of love, support, encouragement, inspiration and unity on the social media platforms! The more love and authenticity I put out there, the more love and healing I receive. I am grateful for social media in my recovery!
5. What do you think one of the most common misconceptions are about those with PTSD specifically and mental health conditions in general?
This is a sensitive area for me, because I am saddened by my own observations that society’s attitude is “don’t talk” and “dont’ feel.” To me, this is denying the disease and others’ pain. I’ve heard many people from acquaintances to mental health professionals tell me that I don’t have PTSD, until it became evident. In short, I think PTSD is widely denied, yet the reason why there is evil in the world today. We, as a whole, are not treating trauma and it is being repeated generationally. In my utopia, when someone wants to be heard, they would be heard! As negative as my answer may seem, my hope is that whoever reads this has a piece of my heart filled with hope and faith that they can find the validation and recovery path that they need. I believe recovery is there for anyone who wants it, despite society! As far as society’s misconceptions on mental health conditions in general, I am more hopeful. I find that people judging me while I’m being brave and embracing pain is probably their own projection. I don’t care, especially when I get to choose not to have them in my life. I am excited to say that I’m witnessing more and more people embrace mental and spiritual health, making it the “new sexy.” I have A LOT of hope in regards to dampening the overall, negative mental health stigma that most of us are used to. To end, I have hope and believe that love always wins!
It’s been a while since I have posted on London Mind Fit. That has been deliberate. I was going through a lot on my own and didn’t feel it was appropriate to bring you on that potentially tumultuous journey with me. I was right.
Back at the beginning of lockdowns, I began to think about how to create a mental health mini-podcast series. I wanted for it to be on point, which means that I needed to be. Finally, the first episode of London Mind Fit Sessions has come together! The subject matter for the first episode is one that is heavy to a lot of people within the mental health field: diagnosis.
To watch or listen to the first episode of London Mind Fit Sessions click play below.